honestly, what even is my purpose? I'm a goddamn waste of space. I hate being alive but my family needs me here. I'm so tired and nobody seems to notice or they just pile their problems on me when all I've ever wanted was somebody to just listen to me instead of turning my vent into theirs. I feel like I'm losing my mind, and I'm so desperate for anybody to notice me that I'm scared I'll go to dangerous lengths for someone's attention. I feel like I'm just seeking attention atp, because I want to do bad things so people can finally see me. This was stupid. I'll probably amend up deleting this, I just needed to get it off my chest